I am That Mom...Who Knew?

I was talking with a friend and all of a sudden she got real quiet. She looked down at the ground, then as she brought her eyes up to meet mine, she did a half shrug and said...I need to talk to you about your younger son.  Dread filled my heart and I put on a brave smiled, and said what about?  She then begin to give an account on something that he had said to her boy.  In that moment my defenses came up and I stepped into the battle ring.  I knew for a fact that her son probably started it and mine was just in rebuttal. You see this was not the first time our two boys have had words.  When this would happen I would always tell him to believe the best and move on.  You can imagine my anger when my friend had the nerve to point out a wrong doing on my boy, then not even mention the fact that hers might have been in the wrong as well.  Now I don't want to give you the impression I thought my son was perfect...in fact like all of us he is far from it.   I just did not like being told by someone else his wrong doings. Why? It made feel like a failure as a parent. You see my youngest was my most challenging one.  At age six he was diagnosed  with Attention Deficient Hyper Disorder and Sensory Processing Disorder.  I had to learn parenting on a whole new level, plus I was doing it as a single mom.  I learned to see the world as he saw it, I learned how to help him cope in a world full of stimulation overload.  What I did not realize I was doing was becoming a mamma bear mamma. If someone said or did something to him I jumped into defense mode, and even at times distant us from that person who did us wrong. At the time I had know idea I was doing this.  I am pretty sure my friends who were close to me tried to tell me, but...I was to prideful to listen.  Move forward to times of now and my son is older the Hyper has worn off, but he still has the ADD/SP part.  With the grace that only God can give he is adjusting well and living a very normal life.  He will still have the occasional meltdown, but they are easier to work through now. It was not until about a month ago when with a sudden clarity I realized I was that over protective mom.  I now force myself to listen with an open heart and mind when people talk to me about him.  It is not easy and every conversation like this I have to give it to God.  Who knew that I was that mom?  lol everyone but me.  As I mentioned before by the grace of God I can move forward with this.  I ask for you to pray for me, it is not easy admitting one's faults and then trying to overcome them.  As always you can send me a prayer request via the Walking With Him FB page through the instant msg.  In this world we are not perfect, but if we join in prayer by asking God to help us, nothing can hold us back.  Just my 2cents