My mom with Jessica and Corry
As I stood in front of the Mother's day card section, a wave of sadness washed over me. For I knew it would be hard finding a card for my mom. I was doing this more out of obligation than honor....I knew that whatever card I picked it would not be fitting. You see I spent the first 6 years of my life with my mom. I really don't have a lot of memories of my time spent with her,but what I do have they are not pleasant. These memories are filled with drugs, explosive tempers, and different "uncles". When I was 6 she gave me up and I became a ward of the State of Idaho. Thankfully her first husband took me in as his own. ( this is a story for another day). I did not meet my mother again until I was 18 and newly married. We tried to keep in touch but eventually lost track of each other. Then I was reacquainted with her when I was 34 and a mother of 4. As we got to know each other we struggled to start a relationship it was rough at first, but through time it got better. Now we meet once a month and talk on the phone weekly. Yes, we still have our ups and downs as we dig through the emotions of the past. We are learning to communicate in an open and honest way. As I look back through my life and realize she probably did the best thing for me, by giving me up. I understand now that this was her best option and I don't fault her in any way. I love the fact that she is in my life, and I am thankful for her....Today as I stand in the Mother's day card section as my hand reaches out to select the perfect card for her. A smile appears in my heart and on my face. I can't wait to see what treasure I will find. Love you mom to the moon and back, and then to infinity and beyond. Missie
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